September 03, 2012 It's been a really long time since I've written and so much has happened. Loss of family members, spouse, friends, identity. This picture is how I feel my life is right now. Run down, broken in some places, sinking in others. I'm almost positive that I'm depressed. I'm afraid of cancer...it's hard to even write the word out in print. I'm sad most of the time and feel like I'm going no where. I'm lonely and I sleep a lot. My eating is completely out of control. I'm lazy and generally unhappy. I'm also spending money like a crazy woman. I need help!