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Do you recognize me ?

When I went to post this I looked back to see when my last post was. It had only been three days but I was so sure it was over a week. Things have been "wild" in my life. I know that God is doing a work in me and He is removing things that have to go in order for me to have more room for Him. The exposing part has been difficult and at first I didn't recognize what was happening. The day before yesterday I found myself standing in front of my bedroom mirror and I looked and said "Who are you?" I don't even feel like myself because of the attitude I've had. My emotions have been all over the place like a racket ball in an agressive match. As I write that line I realize it is a match between my flesh and the Spirit. I have been so grouchy and negative towards my self and others. One person in particular I felt sure was justified, but this morning the Lord in all His mercy showed me otherwise. He said Rhonda, you all have choices, what you choose is u

Random Thought

Today I was thinking about how we go to meeting in church and expect God to move a certain way in order to know He was present. We are waiting and watching for things to happen based on what has happened in past experiences so we can "feel" a certain way and know He was with us. When I get together with my BFF it is not the same every time . I mean there are certain things likely to happen. If we're on a trip going somewhere new, we are likely going to do a U turn somewhere and it is almost certain one of us will say "it's always an adventure". However, each one of those trips is different . Our conversations are different our experiences are different . Sometimes we just sit on the couch and veg out or go to the mall. Whatever we do it is relational and we go away knowing we were together that day. Stay with me here... Why then do we wait upon God and say if this or that didn't happen that there was not a great move or visitation ? What if God j

Altar of Praise

Tuesday I went to the doctor. I have to have surgery again. Luke 18:42 says "And Jesus said unto him, Receive thy sight; thy faith has saved thee." I have recieved my sight. I see this mountain, but I'm not going to climb it. I'm going to stand right here and build an altar of praise for my loving Father. I see a mighty God who has all power and can cause this mountain to be cast into the sea forever. I see a loving God who cares about my well being . I am a daughter of the Most High and as a daughter I have many benefits, one being divine health. Jesus took it back from the enemy. I don't even have to battle for it. It is a gift as a beliver and I recieve it with open arms and an open heart. Remember, God wants to do us good! I love You Lord and I bow at Your feet and I ask Lord, what can I do for You . Youv'e done everything for me. Your glorious and beautiful and I'm so in love with You. I see You Lord, in all Your splendor seated high upon Your thr

train dream

Last night's Daughter of Troops meeting was so great. I'm so happy to get to know all the ladies that I don't know very well. I had a strange dream last night. I am sure it is related to our D.O. T. meeting. In the dream I was standing on a grassy area and there was a very defined area between the grass and the sand. The desert area was a large place and in the far distance I could see an old partial train track with three train cars on it. The cars were all linked together. I wanted to go over and look at the train and the very moment I touched my toe to the sand I was in the train car, although I don't know which one. At this point it was as though I was watching a movie. I could see myself standing in an open doorway. There was a door in front of me and I opened it and there was a long hallway with many doors on either side of the aisle. I stepped out of the doorway to open one of the hall doors. The door where I had been standing slammed shut. When I opened on

Scent of Heaven

This morning I woke up excited to go into my prayer room and meet with God. I was not disappointed! As I left the room to make ready for my day I could smell a sweet aroma. It was sort of like Honeysuckle. I don't have any Honeysuckle growing nor do my neighbors that I know of. I wasn't wearing perfume or burning candles or anything. As I walked into the living room it was like walking into a mist of this aroma. I believe it was the presence of God I was smelling. I have heard of this and I have heard some say they could smell roses. I think the more we walk in the Spirit, we can expect things like this . Remember God is supernatural. Expect the unexpected. I'm not saying I'm looking for things or proof or anything like that. I'm just saying I know He is real and I know His voice and I can feel His presence and today I could smell His presence.

Pregnant

Before anyone gets too excited about the title. No I'm not! At least not in the natural. All day today I've felt an excitement. It is coming from the depths of me. Tonight at church I could feel it in the air. there was an expectancy. The worship seemed more alive, there were more people than usual for a Wednesday night, there was laughter; a reunion of sorts. I remember when I was pregnant with my son. I couldn't wait for him to move. Once he did, wow. The boy was a kicker! After that initial time I came to look forward to his movement except maybe when he got under my rib cage. Ouch. I could hardly wait for him to be born. What will he look like? I know he will be beautiful. The doctor explained that the baby had to drop and get into the proper position in order to be born. I believe it will be that way for Bethel . We are starting to see signs of new life and a birthing is taking place right before our very eyes. God is positioning us and His move is about to be

Unity/Destiny

Monday's Kingdom teaching was so good. Pastor Frank spoke about the "body" of Christ It isn't about a denomination or an attendance number. We are all the body. Earlier this year I heard a teaching on unity. Unity is more than just a body gathered in a building and holding hands. When each of us go out and do the things the Lord had called us to do as individuals and we move as His body, then we are truly united. If ABC Church has a great ministry for the homeless and XYZ Church has an awesome worship team it does not make one greater in the eyes of God. It does not mean that ABC is "The Church". We are all the body, big or small We have boxed God in and our ideas of unity are far smaller than God's. We tend not to see the whole picture. We are all blood related because of the shed blood of Jesus. We simply must, must, must be Kingdom minded. Our thinking must shift from a natural realm to a supernatural realm. (Thank you Bill Johnson for your wise words

Fountain

I just love Jesus so much! He gave me the idea for the beverage fountain for KIDS Church "oil spill". I saw some in the mall for $80.00 and even over $100.00. They were for chocolate. Today I received a flyer from Big Lots and they had a beverage fountain for $18.00. Thank you Jesus. Needless to say I ran right out and got it. God always makes a way but we have to do our part. I prayed and then I had to go get it ( I received ). If we listen, God is always speaking. This morning I woke up and I couldn't wait to spend time with Him. He is alive in me.

Fresh Oil

Wow. I can't believe I almost forgot to post this. As I prepare for the new thing God is going in K.I.D.S. Church the Lord told me there would be an oil spill. Like when there is an oil spill in the ocean it is a bad thing, but the one we will have is a great thing. Anyhow, I keep a bottle of oil with a lid on it on the altar all the times. When we had church on July 8 th , the children began to move into worship and the oil got knocked over and began to pour out on the altar and make a large puddle on the floor. I didn't really think anything about it until I saw Alexis go and stand barefoot in the puddle. I motioned for her to move out of it and she would not or could not move away from it. Honestly, I don't think she could, she was so drawn to it. The Lord spoke to me and said this is a prophetic sign of things to come. She is standing in the oil of the Holy Spirit , she is soaking and becoming saturated in that anointing. After worship and not one minute before she wa

Arson

Isn't God soooo good. and the cry of His children is a resounding, "Yes, He is!" Today I was in Clyde visiting at KLF Church. My parents live there, but they don't go to church there. From time to time I visit because there is something being poured out from God that I want. Now, before anyone might have the thought that I'm looking for another church, let me kill those thoughts right now. I am not. I belong at Bethel Temple, Abilene, Tx. Last year I received a Word from the Lord that I was to visit KLF in order to glean and take it back to Bethel. I have been doing that every chance I can. I see little glimpses of change at Bethel, I get so excited because I know in part what God wants to do and it is amazing! He has placed a fire in me. In Clyde they have meeting they have named BFW. It stands for Burning Fire Within. I have not been able to attend one of these meetings but I can tell you that I have a burning fire within me. I don't want to just lig

Truth

The Bible says "the Truth will set you free and he whom the Son sets free is free indeed" I've been dealing with a lot of truths these past few months. The house where I mostly grew up in Clyde has always brought bad memories for me, yet I had not been there in over 30 years . A few weeks ago I drove out to it. I parked in front of the lot, there was the pine tree my parents brought from Alabama and planted when I was small, but the house was gone. The fears I had about seeing it , gone. It was so big in my mind. Recently I revisited my old church. Something I never thought I would do. Again it was so big in my head and yet I walked through the front door even though it felt creepy. I faced my fears and faced the truth; I have been listening to the lies of the enemy. I've had to share some truths with loved ones that deeply hurt both parties. The truth is that sometimes the truth hurts. It can cause you to be catapulted into new horizons , or if you choose so, it ca

Happy Meals

Today a friend e-mailed me to tell me how her daughter ask her little brother if he was saved. She offers to help him to accept Christ with the promise that there will be Happy Meals in heaven. He eagerly accepts her invitation and she proceeds to tell him about Jesus and leads him to the Lord . Personally, I think all meals in heaven will be happy. Good job Ashton!

Crepe Myrtle

What a strange month this has been. I feel a bit like a yo-yo with the emotions. I choose to have a good attitude. I choose life !!! When I got home from church tonight I thought, I need to water my crepe myrtle. I planted her last year as a start in the beatification of my back yard garden. I was surprised at it's somewhat wilted condition. We have had so much rain to the point that the ground was saturated and then after just a few days of heat it is suffering. As I watered her I thought about how I do that sometimes. I'll soak in the presence of God and just get saturated, New life , new confidence begins to bud and then I'll get out of the rain and allow the troubles of this world bring heat and before you know it I begin to wither. How silly of me, thank you Lord for grace and mercy. I have another tree in the back yard. When I moved in it was in early February and so there were no leaves and quite honestly the tree looked dead. Someone had drilled holes in it
I'm at work. This morning I wore my flip-flops. I guess when I was at home a clump of hair came out of my comb and it must have fallen into my shoe. I looked down at my foot a minute ago and it looked like the foot of Frodo Baggins (Lord of the Rings). It made me laugh out loud. I wonder why it is that when there is an extra roll of coins on hand that there is someone that just has to open it, whether it's needed or not. For some it is like an itch, they just have to. It's like when your almost out of milk and you buy another gallon, but someone had to open the new one before finishing off the old one. Argh...it highly irritates me. Okay, enough complaining. My birthday was a great day. I'm so thankful for the friends God has placed in my life. Even my sweet daughter-n-law called me. I'm so blessed.

Birthday

Today is my birthday. My flesh is 47 years old. I was born again in 1994 so I'll claim 13 as my age. Thirteen is such a milestone. It is a time of change. Lord, I hope I don't have raging hormones or radical mood swings (hee-hee). I'm very young at heart and I could be the mascot for Toys'R'Us. I don't want to grow up. In fact God instructs us to be childlike. I'm not quite ready to give up my crush on Captian Jack Sparrow. Seriously though, it is also a time of maturity and putting away some of those childish things. When my son turned 13 it was an amazing transformation and it was immediate. The night before his birthday I tucked in a 12 year old that spoke so kind to me and he woke up on his birthday with a mouth...There would be no more Ninja Turtle bedspreads or tighty whities. No. No. He was now a man who would only wear boxers and jeans from American Eagle and black chucks for his feet. I believe I woke up with a mouth too. I proclaim the goodness

July 4th

Today is the 4th of July. Independence Day. In KIDS Church Sunday we sang a song called "I Am Free". I am free to dance, I am free to run, I am free to live for You my King, I am free. Today was a great day, I spent a large part of it with my B.F.F. and we went shopping, one of my favorite things to do. It seems like everyone freaked out because the 4th was on a Wednesday this year. Was this the only time it has ever been on a Wednesday? NO... They were talking about it on the radio, the T.V and a lot of stores closed at 6:00P.M. They don't even close that early on Christmas Eve. I think they just felt cheated because it wasn't a three day weekend. Not me, I'll take it anytime. This week I has a CD that I use in KIDS Church go missing, it is one that cannot be replaced and has songs and puppet skits to coordinate with the cirricumlum. I was saddened. I looked everywhere, my house (3 times), my car (twice), the classroom. I had friends looking for