Lion's Den

I was just reading some of my older posts. How sad that some things have not changed. I'm still extremely sad over the loss of my mother and my sister. I'm still battling demons of oppression . I'm still crying about my weight and feeling helpless to do anything about it.
I am overwhelmed!
I am so unhappy with many aspects of my life.
I am literally at war within myself. Why do I do the things I don't want to do? Paul wrote that for me. As I turned to God in despair after dinner, I felt impressed to go get my old Bible, the one that is worn and has been to hell and back with me. I opened it up in Genesis and found this highlighted area in Chapter 4 v6 "Why are you so angry? Why is your face downcast? If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must master it."
Now isn't that just like God. He is so amazing. This is difficult because I have once again positioned myself in a corner and built walls so that I'm alone. But, I have been here before and so I know there is eventually a way out. Dear Lord, please help me to get out. I know you will never leave me and I believe you are my strength. I need a fresh anointing. Deliver me O'God from the mouth of the lion that is trying to devour me.

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