New Day

A lot has happened in the month since I last blogged. I left Kevin and filed for divorce. It was very hard to do and required the most intense focus I have ever experienced in my life. I'm dealing with a lot of emotional things right now. Some I did not expect. I never expected to miss him, but I do. The Lord reminded me of when I had major surgery a few years ago, it was so painful and left me vulnerable and in the hospital for 3 long weeks. I thought the pain would never go away and the wound would never heal. The Lord told me at the time that one day I woud look back on this time and soon it would be a memory. It is now. There are times that I feel little (sometimes BIG) pains from the surgery area. Most times they pass quickly but on occasion they do linger for a few days. Nevertheless they end. All that to say, so will this pain. It is temporary and will soon be gone. Life will be differant, better, and it will go on. I am discovering strengths that I have had all along, but the enemy distorted my mind and had me believing they were weaknesses. He is a liar! I'm thankful for new beginnings and new mercies. I am certain I will feel other emotions here and there. but praise God they too will pass. I am not defined by my feelings, I am defined by the Almighty who says I am an overcomer, by the blood of Jesus and the word of my testimony. I am born of God and the evil one cannot touch me! I am free forever from condemnation and I'm getting better everyday at recognizing it. God sent an army of His Troops to help me out of the trap I was tangled up in. He has my back. I have been redeemed and forgiven of ALL my sins and the Precious, powerful Holy Spirit dwells within me. Like Jennifer Hudson sings for Weight Watchers, " It's a new day, it's a new dawn and I'm feeling good"

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