I recently heard from my first husband after hearing nothing for 34 years.  It was a bad break up. He cheated many times and then ask for a divorce. I was only 18 and it absolutely crushed me and my dreams.
He contacted me to be a friend on Facebook  and I accepted . We wrote back and forth after exchanging emails and I told him I forgave him. While it is true that I did forgive him, I have come to realize that the past is always the past. We no longer know one another and apparently I never knew him. The only thing we have in common now is the past. It is a painful place and it can only take me back to where I have already been. It is buried and digging up stinking and rotting things only leaves an undesirable foul stench in my nostrils.  So I unfriended him after catching him in a lie.  I made a choice that was good for me. I usually do whatever I think will make the other person happy even if it makes me miserable. Today I stretched and grew a little.  I have miles to go, but I am moving.  According to the Mayans today was supposed to be the end of the world and while that did not happen it was the end of that association.

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